Friday, December 19, 2008

Greetings...

from Guatemala! I'm taking the opportunity to write before it gets to crazy hot around the computer and I start melting on to the keys. I have so much going through my head right now. I've been in Guatemala a week now and I don't think I've felt this home sick before. I think it has to do with it being the holidays and things here aren't really the same as they are there. Luis and I were sitting outside and I heard a christmas song, Nsync to be exact, and I just kind of lost it. I'm torn between spending much needed time with the husband and the traditional christmas with family and friends. I think i finally kind of broke down last night after I stayed home all day while Luis was at work and I had too much time to think. I finished my book, listened to about all the music I could bare, cleaned, watched TV and of course sweat till I thought there was nothing left to sweat. I'm missing my brothers back from college, friends home for the holidays that I haven't seen in what seems forever, tree decorating, and the traditional gathering at the Leishmens...I could go on. I don't want it to feel like I'm ungrateful, because I am grateful. I'm glad I got to spend Luis' birthday with him and soon christmas and just the fact that we are together is a bonus. I just got a bad case of the should-of, would-of, could-of, and ifs and buts. I've been here 6 times. Still feels like the first when people just stare at you when you walk or ride by. I don't speak or understand spanish so it's kind of hard to talk to others and sometimes it's uncomfortable when things don't get explained to me. I get very self conscious and I have to stay on my toes when we go out. Even in the neighborhood I still have to be careful. Luis has some cute little cousins that live next door and they are fun to watch. I think we have been to the little...and when I say little...I mean it...mall...everyday just so I can get out of the heat. We did get to be a normal couple saw a movie in a real theater! Whoo! This morning we hired a Mariachi singer to come and sing this morning to Luis' mom Irma for her birthday. He was pretty good, didn't understand any of it. But it sounded good. Other than that, there's not much else going on. We are pretty much broke so we have to find things to do around the house or the mall. But we are together, so I'll survive. It's starting to get hot so I think I'm gonna get ready for the day. Did i mention that the shower water is cold...all the time...well it is...all the time...awesome...
Have a great Christmas!